every hello ends with goodbye

i'm so tanned right now. :P but strangely enough, I don't care.
i just ate like, 3 bars of chocolate.
and again, i don't think i care.
i guess when you realize whats really important, simple mundane things like
getting fat arms and tanned dry skin doesn't matter much.
i had school today. i woke up feeling my worst,
monotonous. dead. I didn't know what to expect.
So we've got a biology experiment.
it was seriously simple. simple to understand, simple to do.
nothing like chemistry's experiments.
we also had our class photo taken again. We had it taken
3 months ago perhaps. And i guess they lost the pictures or
something? So yes we took it again.
I was sitting on the chair again :) which makes me look fatter but i don't care hah.
Got pissed off by the fat bitch again.
wanted to slap her but i'm afraid i'll get in trouble for it.
perhaps i could slap her outside school boundaries. she deserves it anyway.
reached home @ about close to 2pm.
felt like my heart's almost stopping, like a fish out of water,
it's like my lungs were compressing - unwilling to take in respiration
eyes were getting red and stingy, face became warm,red
and blotchy.
you've got me laughing when i sing,
you've got me smiling while i sleep.
if you ask me would i make a different choice,
i think i would not. it's for the best. and my
instincts are always close to accurate.
if i was someone else, if i had a different background,
we could have been everything.
but i'm not, i'm the most simple minded,
stupid, silly, naive girl and i must be everything SHE's not.
sorry, better luck next time

sorry guys for not replying you on MSN.
kind of busy, ack.
I NEED A GNO. :P
desperately.
or maybe more hearts to break.
hahhh JK :P
but, yes, GNO.
who's up for it?
i'm available on Saturday.