Am i supposed to put my life on hold, because you don't know how to act?

Who are your best friends?
i have a couple of amazing ones :) Zoe, Carena, Jenny, William, Carol, Seck Wei etc!

Do you have a bf or gf?
No, i don't. hah.

Best place to go for a date?
A quiet restaurant :D

Longest relationship?
ohhh i guess like two months.

Shortest relationship?
what defines a relationship? like something 'serious',
then i guess like one month and three days. which is pathetic, i know. hah.

Outgoing or introverted?
Outgoing for sure!!! i can't stand introverts.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
hmm. i guess? hhah :P

How many gf/bf have told you they love you?
like casually or like, intensely?
intensely like, one. wooo inteeeense.

Have you ever thought you were going to marry someone?
No. not yet.

Are you crushing on someone?
No.

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
truthfully, single haha. but depends on the guy.

Have you ever been cheated on?
I don't know the whole truth. I can't stand on my ground
and say yes i have been cheated on because
i'm not sure if thats what happened. But i guess,
in a way. but it wasn't serious so..

Have you ever been with someone who was taken at the time?
like the third party? no.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeah. it's sad.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I think so.

Do you talk to any of your ex's?
Yeah. i do.

Do you believe that you're a good bf/gf?
I know i sure wasn't in the past.
but i think i would be, hahah if the right guy comes aloooong :P

Have you ever dated people who was not good for you?
OH YEAH. i dated trouble, thats for sure.

Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
No. thank goodness.

Have you ever dated someone older than you?
They're all older than me. Most of them a year older.
HAHAH.

How about younger than you?
Nope! i don't think i would EVER.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
if it was like cheating and stuff then No.
definitely don't deserve them.

Believe in love at first sight?
hahah i believe in lust in first sight.

Ever been given an engagement ring?
Not yet! :P

Do you want to get married?
I guess, like in the distant future

Ever stolen someone's gf/bf?
Nope. I'm not a slut! hahahha not that big of a one anyway :P

Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
It's WORSE than it sounds. much worse.
makes you feel like you're in a deep pit feel with mosh.
terrible.

Is your gf/bf the most amazing person?
If i had one he would be the most amazing awesome gorgeous
kitty minky i'll ever have :)

Would you eat a live hamster for $100,000,000?
oh you know what, thats really tempting.
i'll probably do it if the hamster was de-furred,
and i would only be eating the flesh, no intestinal fluids.
ooops :P

Would you go to a Manson concert if you have a free ticket?
definitely not. not my type of music, seriously..

If you were stuck on an island,what people would you want with?
I want Zoe and Carena to entertain me, William and Gavin bringing me
coconuts and Caroline telling me ghost stories.
yuuum.

Do you admire anyone?
like seriously no.

Who is the last person who called you?
dad. but i didnt pick up.

Who was the last person you slow danced with?
woah. like i forgot. seriously.

What makes you laugh the most?
sarcastic, lame comments. or my friends! hah.

What makes you smile?
simple, happy things. ;D
like my dog, my friends, understanding, God.

Do you like filling these out?
At times. and when the questions aren't so repeated
and boring.

Do you wear contacts or glasses?
Glasses at home or like in school at times.
contacts at other times. :)

Do you like yourself?
it's a love-hate relationship.

Do you get along with your family?
I don't really have such a strong bond with them tbh.

Do you have piercings below the waist?
HAHAHA you mean my vajayjay?
HAHAHAH noooo lawl ouch.

Have you stolen anything over $30?
No.

Are you obsessive?
Oh yeh.

Are you compulsive?
a little at times. :P

Want to have children?
in the distant future probably.

Do you like mornings?
when i have something to look forward to, yes it's amazing.
but when i'm tired and cranky and baked, then NOOOOO

Do you enjoy seafood?
oh yes i love it :D

What are you listening to right now?
I'm just a girl - Miley Cyrus oh loool.

What do you dream about?
I dream about..the people around me and the people i once knew.

The last movie you saw at the movies?
The land of the lost last friday

Vanilla or chocolate?
Vanilla :P

Summer or winter?
summer mornings and winter nights?

Silver or gold?
Silver.

Pearl or diamonds?
Diamonds. :P

Sunset or sunrise?
Sunrise.

Best song you ever heard?
Better in time by leona lewis.
second time around by lady gaga.
goodbye by miley cyrus.
i'm your venus :P

Stupidest thing you have ever done?
trusting people that i should never ever trust.
being too naive

Whats your room like?
My room's, pretty organized i must say.
But pretty cluttery at times. Filled with beauty products and
clothes and underwear. hahah! smells like my hair shampoo,
very cold! has lots of blankets and a laptop
permanently etched on the side of my bed.
has lady gaga playing every second, has cold marble floors.

Last thing you said?
like, verbally?
'' Go poo on your mother's laptop! ''
OMG. so mean. :P i actually said that to my dog.

What is beside you?
My battery deprived phone, sunscreen, a bottle of water,
my purse, oil blotter, and a calculator.

What shampoo do you use?
currently it's this raspberry body shampoo from body shop.

Worst thing that has happened to you this year?
ahhhh i rather not disclose

Your most missed memory?
church camp for sure. with my best friends. :)

What is the best grade you've gotten for an essay?
near to perfection.
heheheh :P

Your biggest fear?
Getting separated from my loved ones, especially
mentally. i don't mind physically that much tbh.

Your happiest moment?
when i realize my loved ones DO care,
when the someone you like kisses you,
when i realized i lost weight...

Had the chicken pox?
Oh yeap when i was like 3.

Ever gotten a scar?
ahhh pimple scars, chicken pox scars, falling down scars
i have tonnes of em.

Had a broken nose?
thank goodness no.

Had more than five real bf/gf?
like at the same time?
No. surprised?

Made out with your best friends' bf/gf?
no i won't ever do that.

Made someone cry?
sighhhhh yeah.

Gotten piercings?
oh yeh i have 8 of em.
i wanna get a tragus soon!

Been on a plane?
yep. so relaxing. :)

Have you ever been in love with two person at the same time?
no... not REALLY....
i don't get in LOVE that easily.

What's your biggest turn on?
SMELLS GOOD. yes yes yes!
and has nice hair, nice lips, nice eyes! and nice skin!
guys who eat fast. :P
yuuum.

Do you hope to follow in your parents' footsteps?
HELLA NO.

Would you date your best friend?
HHAHAHAH NO

The hardest thing you've ever had to do?
Saying goodbye.

How long do you take to get ready each morning?
for school, like 20 minutes. haha really fast i know.
when i'm staying at home, i guess like 10 minutes.
when i'm going out, i guess like 120 minutes.

What is your biggest turn off?
stinky people ewww!!!!!!!
bad hair. bad skin. bad teeth!!!!
BAD ATTITUDEEEE.

hahahaha alright! finally done with KY's LONG LONG tag, hope it
didn't bore you outtttt too much yehhh . :P
and now it's Lynn and Carena's tagggg, so here we goooo.

1.) Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
i like getting kissed on my forehead and my cheeks. :P

2.) How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
super sleepy with only four hours of sleep. ended up dragging
myself out of bed at 6.42AM!!

3.) Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
zoeeee, earlier on :)

4.) Would you consider yourself spoiled?
I'm not.

5.)will you ever donate blood?
perhaps i would, but not in the near future

6.)Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
Yep! they're so easy to talk to i love them!

7.)Do you want someone to be dead?
well,....
to be honest
HAHAH YES oooops

8.) What does your last text messages say?
hahahah like 1 minute ago,
'' Hey Pei Jiun, wanna go eat? ''

9.) What are u thinking right now?
whether i should go out and eat. hahahh and
that i probably shouldnt because im so fat now but
i wanna see herrr. :P

10.) Do you want someone to be with you now?
hmm i guess. my friends. :D or..
my dog. hahah.

11.) What was the time you went to bed last night?
2AM but fidgeted till like 2.30AM

12.) Where did you buy the tee that you are wearing now?
it was a gift from someone.

13.) Is someone on your mind right now?
aaaahhhhh not really to be honest.
OH KIND OF. YES.
hahah but whatev.

14.) Who was the last person who text you?
Jenny jenny.

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...those who did this before would not be tagged again(do it if u want too)

1. Su Min ZOE
2. Carena
3. William
4. Seck Wei
5. Harry
6. Shirley
7. Lynn
8. Jenn
9. Fel
10. Sonz

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with? (Carena)
no one, yet. :)

16.Is no.3 a male or a female? (William)
hahahahha good question i've been asking that
all my life!
HAHAH. joking. maleee . :)

17.If no.7 and no.1 got together would it be good? (Lynn and Zoe)
oh i don't know.
that would be infidelity on Zoe's part! she's cheating on me! hhahah!

18.what is no.1 studing about? (Zoe)
pure sciences, sits behind me hahah.

19.When was the last time you chatted with them?
like a day ago or today. :)

20.Is no.4 single? (Seck Wei)
he's mentally not :P

21.Say something about no.2. (Carena)
she's a good friend. :) and a responsible person

22.What do you think of no.2 and no.6 together? (Carena and Shirley)
lol thats like, kind of weird.

23.Describe no.9. (fel)
prettttttyyyy. ;D i heart her she's my party girl.

24.What would you do if no.6 and no.7 fight? (Shirley and lynn)
been there, done that. :x

25.Do you like 8? (Jennn)
yes i do. :) hahahh but i like
the poodle better, heh JKKKKK.

XOXO,
YOU KNOW I LOVE YOUUUU

I couldn't turn on the TV, without SOMETHING that would remind me

hey baby. :)
oh no my fingers are experiencing hyperhydrosis thanks to the
major tamperings of HTML! can drive me up the wall seriously.
yeh yehp theres still some defections and stuff but I'm not
paying much attention to them and you shouldn't either.
alright for you major noobies heh :P
navigations are on Pei Jiun loves youuuu.
so press on em sexy. :P
my brain feels friedd. it's like I'm completely baked,
i'm not mind you. hehe.
the weather's making me cranky! hate the weather here in Malaysia!
meh!
i want an escapade! :P ahhh i'm dead serious here.
probably to somewhere cooling with lots of
good shopping and good food and good companion.
yuum.
shmexy.
had physics tuition again today and time seem
to flew by which is goood :D guess i actually
didn't have such a short attention span afterall.
anyway...
i'm still effing grossed out by people
who shamelessly hit on you.
bah, can't get over it can you Pei Jiun?
alright tomorrow TECHNICALLY is the weekends again.
sigh i miss my own spontaneity.
i'm tied down, rooted down, and i'm gonna be like
a zoombieeeee all through it.

bah,
love me?

i'm so fucking weak.

yawn.
everything getting kind of draggy nowadays
do you agree?
it's kind of a drag not feeling ANY emotions,
like no elation, no heartbrokenness, no yippee yay feeling.
just dead.
AAAAH DEAD.
the most fun part of my day today was
going to sleep. :D
i didn't like the dreams though.
always revolve around fantasies and things
i WANT to happen but i know fosho
definitely won't.
im also eff annoyed at people
who hit on you shamelessly.
whao. know how to spell shameless?
you're with a capital S.
bah.
talk soon,
love you guys XO

p/s : do you think the font's too big/small?

hey sexy. :)
i just got back from a late dinner with Jenny. :)
went to LOUD '09 today.
didn't plan on going actually! kind of a
last minute thing cuz i was pretty dead bored when i woke
up. didn't regret going, :)
saw a few people i haven't seen in eternity.
like Boon Aun! Mark, Rueben!!!, Rachel,
Sarahhh yehhhp. :)
it was good, i prefered this to last year's.
the performances were gooodd yepp.
yesterday went to The Gardens.
bought stuff from Miss Selfridge loool, and
Clinique stuff.
today is actually a very enlightening day.
and it's not just because of LOUD.
although yes, that was very
enlightening as well. :)
no,
its because today -
someone told me something i probably needed to know.
and yes, it hurts.
that i have been so utterly idiotic and naive,
but its definitely something i needed to hear
and now i truly know
who really does sincerely care for me.
and its GREAT knowing.
honestly its true when people say im
far too trustin and naive,
in several cases already.

fiona, william, and half of me loool skeelz.

my meddddds. :(
yeah im still coughing right now.
but i'll be better, don't worry!

and a big THANK YOU
for the people who's stuck by me
through thick and thin,
wow.
i love you guys so much you don't even know :)
school,
XOXO


love alwayys :)

I'M LOOKING F LOVE
NOT AN EMPTY PAGE,
FULL OF STUFF THAT MEANS NOTHING BUT
'' YOU'VE BEEN PLAYED ''

i love her! :P

hahahh ohhh i just got home kinda sorta :P
brought home with me tonnes of medicine!
cough med, sinus med, fever med, phlegm med, antibiotics,
sleep med, WHOOSH.
woke up pretty late today, skipped school
but i didn't even mind. had toblerones for brekkie hehhh
then met up with the bffs @ secret recipe to have lunchhh
and i was doing so much twittering and facebooking wooops :P
had tom yum! omg! who doesnt love tom yum seriously,
its like the best thing invented,
oh and btw, my fullstop button on my laptop
is pmsing and its a pain to press on it, pff
yeh yehp then went over to William's house,
and i had to climb this fence thing, which i ended up being
the first one to climb it then cutting my finger,
then about half a second after i landed on the other side
this guard came and said he would open the fence for us.
T_T fml wth.
oh and my fullstop button recovered from pms. :P
alright then i facebooked in William's house AGAIN
sigh im hopeless :P
had ocha mein AGAIN hahahahahah.
went t catch a movie, land of t lost LOL
which ended up to be tres hilarious and stupidly funny :P
then went over to the drs and the dr was
effing pervertic? like ewww seriously. digress.

oh something Yang Kin did for me
f my birthdayyyy :) aww i love the
purple thingy don't you?
:P
im going Mid Valley and the Gardens tomorrow
i reckon.
something a friend suggested that could explain
stuff right now

'' want me to sign there on your range rover heart?
i've heard it before, yeah the dinners were nice,
TILL YOUR DIAMOND WORDS MELTED
INTO SOME ICE ''

SO TRUE, !!
yehhhyehhyehhhhh
talk to you soonish!
XOXO


love always of course :P

"Well," said Pooh,
"what I like best," and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called.
- A.A. Milne

sometimes, anticipation is the best thing.
like, having chocolate before eating it,
having money before spending it,
having him/her before your eyes right before kissing,
just having SOMETHING to look forward to - is the best thing.

do you agree? :)

i think im seeing my bffs later. :P yay.

meh hiii. :)
i hate it when appliances overheat.
i was on fb replying stuff the whole time during physics tuition.
i don't like maltesers anymore.they taste like blah.
i've just realized how many lipglosses i have.
i had a serious migraine this morning.
skipped school. don't think i skipped nothing.
i'm really greedy. hah.
i so need God's presence. but i can't go to church this week.
I say Amen, because this is the right choice.
iPhone 3GS. soon. :)
i'm so spazzzed. meh.
i need some CHANGE. i need some excitement. :P
yeah. definitely need change, problem is - when?
i feel like such a useless bumbum. i should use this time
to study. archimedes law. hoh.
or i should try to do something productive.
like you know, watching t telly i reckon.
or yes, studying. history doesn't sound too bad now.
speaking of history, my history teacher is shizz.
and i mean, the bad kind of shizz. she's having a thing
against t four of us. when i say t four of us,
my three other girls from class of course :)
her exact words,
Ini empat orang. tau sembang sahaja.
(these four people, always talking)
*gives evil look
i beg to differ. i don't think i talk alot in school.
i mean, yes i get that random shizz chatter mode
but at most times i'm just quiet as eff.
i guess she's mad that so many people were
cheating off the class test. hahhh.
i quote Carena,

hippo piggggg. :P

hahahah ohhh yes. so i should just ace the end years
to proof that i'm not an empty headed bimbo.
which shouldn't be a problem, 20 more marks heh :P
aaah today, before going over for physics tuition, saw
Cheryl, Gavin and his friends about t go for lunchhh.
gyah they asked me t skip tuition but i was like,
oh nooo physics is important you knowww!
ended up regretting big time.
no, i don't seriously give an eff about
archimedes law? buoyancy? upthrust?
yeh whatever? why can't we learn more stuff that we
can actually USE in real life like,
how to get toner arms or like,
dealing with backstabbers and heartbreak and
these sorta things?
I don't think i'm going to be using the law of attraction
or pascal principle anytime soon.
idiotic yes.
i should be my own philosopher O:)
I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow.
i'm gonna be seeing my lovees x.
people who won't ever hurt me,
people who won't let me down,
people who won't leave me hanging,
people who makes me happy NOT on a temporary basis,
people who love me and whom i love :)
guess i really should appreciate things more.
i AM actually pretty lucky compared t
others.
ahhh now i've got this fuzzy feeling :P
ohh yes hahh, to people who think that i'm apparently
''MAD'' or ''fed up'' with em on MSN just because
i don't have the opportunity or
THE TIME to reply long messages or whatever shit,
well, DON'T.
stop being so sensitive. i'm just really busy that's all.
i leave m laptop/phone on with MSN signed in
at almost all the time but i'm not exactly
IN FRONT of the damn thing all day.
so doesn't make sense that i could make an impromptu reply
so pleaseee don't come trying t bring me down by saying,
OH. Pei Jiun too busy for me. Pei Jiun
too busy for her friends now that she's got
XXXXXX or whatever shit you guys create up.
riiiight, get it? good. :)
hahahah goodnight love xx
XOXO,

;)
love always.

every hello ends with goodbye

i'm so tanned right now. :P but strangely enough, I don't care.
i just ate like, 3 bars of chocolate.
and again, i don't think i care.
i guess when you realize whats really important, simple mundane things like
getting fat arms and tanned dry skin doesn't matter much.
i had school today. i woke up feeling my worst,
monotonous. dead. I didn't know what to expect.
So we've got a biology experiment.
it was seriously simple. simple to understand, simple to do.
nothing like chemistry's experiments.
we also had our class photo taken again. We had it taken
3 months ago perhaps. And i guess they lost the pictures or
something? So yes we took it again.
I was sitting on the chair again :) which makes me look fatter but i don't care hah.
Got pissed off by the fat bitch again.
wanted to slap her but i'm afraid i'll get in trouble for it.
perhaps i could slap her outside school boundaries. she deserves it anyway.
reached home @ about close to 2pm.
felt like my heart's almost stopping, like a fish out of water,
it's like my lungs were compressing - unwilling to take in respiration
eyes were getting red and stingy, face became warm,red
and blotchy.
you've got me laughing when i sing,
you've got me smiling while i sleep.
if you ask me would i make a different choice,
i think i would not. it's for the best. and my
instincts are always close to accurate.
if i was someone else, if i had a different background,
we could have been everything.
but i'm not, i'm the most simple minded,
stupid, silly, naive girl and i must be everything SHE's not.
sorry, better luck next time

sorry guys for not replying you on MSN.
kind of busy, ack.
I NEED A GNO. :P
desperately.
or maybe more hearts to break.
hahhh JK :P
but, yes, GNO.
who's up for it?
i'm available on Saturday.

hello. :P tbh, i'm tired.
i'm pooped. i'm everything i don't want to be.
i'm disappointed.
but this is not the first time i'm
disappointed.
it's becoming a routine. it's almost like
i'm expecting it and i'm used to it.
anywayyyyy.
it was my birthday yesterday. :) i am FINALLY, sixteen.
finally legal to?
hahahah. :P whatever.
i spent it with the people i love most obviously.
and all from my school so please don't
scold me :O
we were planning just to go for Sunway for lunch and stuff.
me and Carena met up with William at around 10.30AM.
and OMGG he and Gavin gave me the most prettiest
purple pink wrapped chocolate flowers thingy majigg
omg and i love it so much :) and it was home-made,
omg. haha and i lovelovelove flowers (or anything that
looks like it) more than anything in t world. :)
Melle couldn't make it but she gave me something i really liked
:) thank you Melle, mwack xx♥
so we had lunch @ Zen.
JAPANESE, lol. cuz it's my favourite.
:P the food's pretty good. :) then we went Redbox and stayed
there for 6 hours before we went for dinner?
yeah. tiring. :P pooped. ended up getting a cab back with William
and reached home @ about 11 plus.
thank you so much peopleeee :) the gifts,
the many texts, wishes, greetings.

oh and i watched Harry Potter.
i liked it..
Carena my sisterr :)
cheche, xiaomeimei and lynnn :P
Gav, Chia Sing, PJ, Samantha


Zoe, little sister, ME, lynn.
lunch.
Zoe & William with lunch.
more lunch. i ate so much it's not even funny.

hey everyone. :)
thanks so much for all the many wishes and greetings and blessings and i truly
appreciate each and every one of em,
i couldn't reply all of you guys on text because then my fingers would peel open.
but thank you so much :)
talk to you later, xx.

headache~
SO PAINFUL~!
im gonna go drown in my sorrows now
the poodle is now sleeping on my comforter
why do i always give people
an impression that i cant wake up early?
presumpting!
i can hear my stummy growling
my nails are now subtle pink!
i love taking stupid pictures with my webcam!
i am HAPPY :)
i am a very very happy pixie~
*flies away

My knees are dropping weak;

aw i think i'm hungry. :( oh wellll. today was so tiring
omg! maybe because i only had a few hours
of sleep. oh and we also had the song

thingy competition thingy early in the morning wth.

yeah. i think we'll win. we'll DEFINITELY win. WIN 6TH PLACE.
and theres only 6 classes who performed.
the whole thing just sucked,
and despite wasting SO MUCH precious time
practicing for that stupid damn song it's like we didn't even
practice at all. -.- lack of management skills anyone?
and wth man, i was so squashed! :O
hahah Annita and Andrea were standing beside me and i was just like,
in the middle aaaa squashed :(
picture courtesy of Shu-Yi,
can you find me omg hahah i look like such a NERD..
but thats alright, dorky nerds are cool :P and thats me! ahahah
and anyway Carena, Zoe,and Lynn's legs look
super skinny hereee *drools
and anyway my growling stomach is SO interfering and
disturbing! shhhh stummy shhh good girl.
weekends,
ARE FINALLY EFFING HERE.
i've waited effing long for th weekends srsly!
i'm very very sorry to the people i can't spend my weekends with
sighhh :(
kay lah i'll update soonish.
i've got to
-MASK, exfoliate, moisturize, and just do
alot of pampering stuff loool :D
sighhh i'm in a dreamy mood.
xx honeys

this post, is for me to state my HUGE love for Harry Potter.
no, not Harry Potter aka Daniel Radcliffe aka EQUUS NAKED BROADWAY SHOW GUY.
i'm talking about the thing it is altogether.
and i'm effing in love with it since i was like REALLY young. I guess around 10 years old. and i'm 16 now, ho! go figure.
I started reading the book when I got it as a
Christmas present one Xmas, and finished
it in about two days. It was THAT good.
i couldn't absolutely wait
for the next one, and the next and the next.
I think I've read the whole series 10 times
consecutively and it never ceases
to wow me everytime i read it ! it's like everytime i read it again
i understand something new! it never gets
dull and is always full of
excitement every freaking page! and when
Sirius died I totally cried :(
and i've also watched the movies for the
umpteenth time. It most certainly isn't on
par with the books of course, to be honest which
book made movie ever was?
er none.
but the movies also give me an insight to
how the character looks like
and how Daniel looks so effing YUMMY
and how Voldemort looked like!
totally scared me the first time i saw him.
My deathly hallows book is still on my bedside drawer and i
read it whenever i couldn't sleep or
is restless. it is SO SO good.
I was once so obsessed with it that
I started using HP terms in real life.
like for example,
OMG. i wish i could conjure up a patronus
because dementors are all over the place!
or something like,
OMG i forgot my keys. i wish i could Alohomora.
or like..
OMG I hate her so much! i would totally
Sectumsempra or Crucio her.
and people ignorant to HP would be like, whaaaaat?
yes, thats how much
i love it.
and today, on the 16th, HALF BLOOD PRINCE IS FINALLY OUT.
i used to hate snape, sounds really mean to me.
but after reading the Deathly Hallows i really understood Snape.
and it is so sad! he is such a brave man albeit
with greasy hair and ugly face.
Half blood prince is going to be fan effing tastic!
and i can't wait to watch it!
probably going to on Saturday
:D i'm hyperventilating already!
me and Jenny nearly peed in our pants
watching the trailer.
okay enough zip. so now you know
my obsession with Harry Potter :)
and if i could be in a house in hogwarts i think
i sure won't get Gryffindor!
cuz i don't think i'm brave and courageous at all! i would probably be in Ravenclaw!
but i'm not smart so probably Hufflepuff, cuz Helena takes all the rest! hahah!
but perhaps i'm very brave deep down
inside you never know hahahah!

besides that, today is also a very very special day because
it's my best friend's birthday! ;) he is so awesome. and always there for me
whenever i have like some new boy craze or whenever i have
problems and need a venting machine. he's always there!
so a very very happy birthday to
SECK WEIIIII LIM ;D
who is elder than me already. by 3 days hahah : ) just wanted to let you know
that you're awesome the way you are,
and don't ever change! i hope you have a great time today hahahah
and you should cuz you share the same day with
the half blood prince's premiere day :) xx

anyway, today school was also pretty relaxing.
we had netball in the morning and lets just say i saw
some pathetic sore losers. then we practiced singing
national anthems lool
i'm so sick of it already!
we've practiced for like 83724278 times already and it's barely any
better! and everyone seems to be criticizing each other
trying to be bossy and all. and this girl is SO rude.
gosh i can't freaking stand her, i hope
she gets an attitude check and A LIFE.
after you get a life, leave us out of it.
Lynn totally
scolded her today hahah i love her! she deserves it seriously she is SO rude
and so impolite. worst thing is she's in my chemistry PEKA group so
whenever we had to do experiments i would be
forced to sit around the table
and let her boss everyone around while shoving and pushing
like a fat biatch she is. i guess people who know me would know who
she is.
anywayyyyy i think i totally lost my voice! i sang so much,
and we r singing ''You are not alone'' by Michael Jackson
for sivics class next week :) and i totally could do the
moonwalk looll!! then me and Zoe pretended to be
Ginger and Sunny bullying Jan Di and it was so so so hilarious
that i got a stitch. :P everyone started shutting us up sigh! hahah

oh and i guess the only down side today is that i have physics
tuition later on! sigh. DAMN SIEN LOR. wish i could text people :(
i can't text but i can read them hahaha! so text me people xx

omggg its almost the weekends
i can SMELL the excitement, can you?


XX PEOPLE I LOVE YOU!!!
*im mad happy now cuz PMS phase is OVER!
I'M MAD CHEERFUL NAO HAHAHAH
gingerr signing outtt ARASSOOO

fel tagged chloe, who tagged meee :)
Name?
Pei Jiun

Do you like your name?
It's alright

Are you named after anyone?
you

Birthday?
19th July

Current age?
16 soon zomgzomg spasm

Where you were born?
KL

Where you currently live
PJ

Face shape?
i have no idea loool almond cone diamond heart square round oval

Skin tone?
probably fairish olive

Do you have acne?
ERR. hahahah YES??

Favourite place to shop at?
forever 21 although sometimes it's sooo overpriced
and you can probably get the same thing at another place for
a much cheaper place,
and sometimes the size is far too big and neckline way too plunging
so sometimes i prefer topshop!

Hair color?
ze most boringest black in the whole world

Hair texture?
thin and sparse LOL

Hair length?
slightly over shoulders

Eye color?
brown sigh

Eye shape?
small and small ! ._.

How big are your eyes?
really small like sigh! hahahah!

Do you wear contacts or glasses?
bothhh :D

How about braces? Have/had them?
NOO. hahah.

Do you have straight teeth?
i'm gonna lie through gritted teeth and say YES hahahah no shame

Are they really white?
its whiter than yours lol

Do you have high cheekbones?
no, they're like sunken in like a druggie's

Do you have thick or thin lips?
hahahh! umm they're like umm in the mid i guess

Long eyelashes?
fake ones count?

Do you wear makeup?
yeah..

What kind of makeup do you use?
eyeliner,eyeshadow,mascara etc

What brand of makeup do you use?
umm dior/lancome/annasui/mac/shuuemura

What shoe size do you wear?
like 5 / 6 hahahh

Ring size?
i don't know umm S or M?

Belt size?
-.-

Pant size?
my tightest jean size is like 24 and my loosest one is 26

Shirt size?
probably a size 6 or 8
and M lol fattiee :P

How tall are you?
173 cm - 5 ft 8?

Happy with it?
yes very thank you GOD

Your weight
Probably around 46-49

Happy with it?
nooooo hahah of course not. but i lost weight so all's good

Do you exercise a lot?
like hell noooo. maybe sometimes.

What kind of exercising do you do?
walking hahah power walk hoho :P

Are you toned?
like so nooooo :P

Muscular?
i have. BICEPS HOHOHOHO and if i know you well enough you
probably is sick of me showing you already :P

Overweight?
yeah im obese (nearly spelled obsessed wth)

Are you in shape?
can you please stop asking me about my weight problems
im already very depressed!

What school do you attend?-:
taman s.e.a

What classes are you taking?
physics, chemistry, biology, addmath

What's your favorite one?-:
break time lol. OH yea i know i know BM! i love BM!
because i can take off my shoes and sit cross legged and sleep
during BM woo lovee

Least favorite?
physics because of the idiotic moron of a teacher, addmath and chemistry
because lack of brain cells

Favorite teacher
mr tey LOLL because he hasn't scolded me before
and he allows me too snooze in class aw love youuu

What class do they teach?
BM lol which explains why my bm sucks

Least favorite teacher?
miss wong because she's a fag
and pn ting because she's UNFAIR and so annoying

What class do they teach?
physics & addmath

How many schools have you ever attended?
three

Are you in any clubs?
yeah hahah.

What ones?
interact

What about school plays?
why should i ?!

Musicals?
I cant sing for nuts

Do you go to a lot of school dances?
no.

Are you full of school spirit?
NOOOO probably the most un school spirity person

Ever got detention?
i guess not

Suspended?
almost, -.-

Expelled?
no.

Your favorite sport?
talking hahahah :P or i guess ummm. haiyah i dunno lah i suck

Least favorite sport?
VOLLEYBALL

Favorite sports team
skip. or maybe MAN U because got cute guy wth

Least favorite sports team
skip

Do you play any sports?
skip

What ones?
skip

Are you good?
skip

What sport would you like to be better at?
skip

Is cheerleading a sport?
i dont care

What's your favorite sport to watch?
skip

To play?
skip

Your favorite type of music?
electropop, dance, techno, mainstream, korean pop hooo

Favorite band(s)?
BIGBANG :P , ss501

Favorite song(s)?
lady gaga's!, taylor swift's, capsule's and BIGBANG's or SS501

Least favorite type of music
rap. emo crap :o

Least favorite band(s)?
hmmm i don't know?

Least favorite song(s)?
ALOT LOLL

Did/do you take any classes relating to music in highschool/college?
no

Do you play an instrument?
Yes. :D

What one(s)?
Piano, and Violin.

Do you like dancing to music?
whatever.

Do you like singing?
i can't sing for nuts heheh :)

Best
alot :D

Nicest
they're all really nice

Cutest
Carena

Shyest
umm hmm.

Friendliest
they're all pretty friendly to me

Dorkiest
me hahahah 8-|

Prettiest
they're all pretty! like prettiest pretty! :D

Ugliest
MEEE LOL

Sweetest
they're all sweet !

Most reliable
ME!
omg im so shameless!!!

Least reliable
shh.

Best singer
ZOEEE :P and carol.

Best dancer
I'm not sure.

Best at an instrument
me -.-

Best artist
hahahahah zoe zoe she draws the cutest boobs

Biggest appetite
GAVIN hahahahahha

Do you have a crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?
umm noOoOOOOOO? :p

Their name
GACAR

Do they know (if it's a crush)?
hahahah no. :)

Do you like anyone?
AAA nOoOOoOOo

Are you a virgin?
lol um yesh -.-

Do you want to remain a virgin until marriage?
lol um idk

How far have you gone?
haven't gone anywhere yet :P
hahahahahh none of your bizzz

Are you in love?:
irrevocably

Have you ever been in love?
once

Who was your first.. crush?
crush hmm ohh hahahh yeah this guy lah lol

Date?
can't remember hahahah :P or don't want t remember

Person you held hands with?
ohhh HhAHHHAHA nooo onEEEEEE:p

Kiss?
Why you so nosyyy!! ahahhah OKAY IF YOU MUST KNOW
it's SUMIN sighhh
i gave her my first kiss lOOOLLL

Person you made out with?
hmmm... cannot remember lah hahahahah

Person you had sex with?
skip

Who was your last.. crush?
NEVER HAD A CRUSH LAH hahahahah

Date?
uhhhm haven't been on a date for agesss sigh im ancient

Kiss?
one of my friends :D

Person you made out with?
a picture looool jokee

Person you want to kiss?
UMM HAHAHAH UMMM

Person you're going to go on a date with?
ummm hahahah don't want tell you leh very shy HAHAH

Do you want to get married?
yes :D

By what age?
i don't know! :O like 26??

Do you want to have children?
ERR aaaa i'm not sure sigh!!

How many?
i don't knowwww i'm so indecisive heh

By what age?
okay i'm getting annoyed with the questions

Their names?-:
umm nate, karl, and umm lavender! lOL

What is your future career going to be?
health physician! hahaha crap lah
i don't knowww.

How are you feeling today?
today, is a pretty good day!
but it could be better sigh
because you're the splinter inside me while i wait!

Favourite gum?
i don't really like gum,
but i guess i like umm the sweet kind. -.-

Can you speak a different language?
yeah hahahah im multi lingualistic HOHO shameless
and omg i just remembered i told carena that mr tey
was such a exemplary man because he could speak
chinese, cantonese, hokkien, malay, english,
AND ISLAMIC squirly thingy OMG HAHAHAH SWOON

What are your weaknesses?
a cute smileee, sweet words to immerse myself in and
imaginary kisses LOOOL i sound like a paedo -.-

Are you insecure?
umm, hell yeah! i'm probably the most insecure person you
would ever meet.

What is the best advice you've ever been given?
LOVE IS A BATTLEFIELD!!

Are you competitive?
umm, i guess i am but i'm not a sore loser

What are you most proud of in your life?
my capability to crap up such random stuff to make myself
seem even more sillier than i already am :)

Do you have any regrets?
yes. lol i do i have SO many of them SO SO many

Are you a perfectionist?
umm i guess it depends,
i am one when it comes to drawing straight lines lol!

What do people categorize you as?
probably annoying and bimbotic. LOL
i am not bimbotic okayyy hahah

How do you categorize yourself?
yeah the annoying part i agree lol. and maybe irritating as well as stupid.
and i gues really temperemental (sp) and talks way too much.
but can be WAY quiet in front of people she either likes too much or hates
too much LOL

go figure xo

ONE. thing i REALLY CANNOT TAKE is...
PEOPLE SAYING I ONLINE 24/7.
RAR RARR RARRR!
eh, open your eyes WIDE WIDE can or not?
I SO AM NOT ONLINE ALL THE TIME CAN?
can you please get your facts right before you
accuse people of being lifeless ar!
take a look at yourself ok!
this statement occurs to EVERYBODY
who said that which is ALOT
i especially hate people
who knew me for like 1 DAY ONLY THEN ACCUSE ME OF
BEING LIFELESS AND BEING ONLINE EVERYDAY

EH? YOUR PROBLEM!?!?
and i also HEAVILY dislike when i'm trying to deny
something which is something said WRONGLY about me
and they say

'' don't lie lah ''

okay one word kay,
eff you bai *block*

忍不住
想要爱你的冲动
不确定我的执著能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受
不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落？

hello. :) ohhh don't ask me how my day was, its only about to get better, i have addmath and a shit long letter to write later. School sent me a WARNING letter about my absence from school for ONLY 17 DAYS. geez. and they're like threatening to suspend me or shit. so i've got to draft out this super long letter sighh poor pj. anyway i'm really sorry, for keeping this blog in this dead fish emotional volcano state. I don't like it much myself but sometimes i can't take it. and when people ask me to explain i would be like,
i don't know what to explain. le sigh forget it, i have some stupid pictures lawl of stupiddo mee.

i look so retarded

yesterdayyy
Shirley sporting this totally 60's look completed with
shit load of bangles and accessories!
and me looking extremely tired and sweaty le sighh
my beloveddd carenaaa :)
who totally scared me berjeebers on that day,
she totally looks so gothic lolita-ish right! and my
small eyes paled in comparison with her big round
shiny scary ones :P
yeah yesterday, went to this cultural event thingy,
loll it was alright just dull at some points. and sweltering! :(
the costume runway part was nice,
except some looked,...
weird.
and thats the most polite way to say it.
no offense.
then got creeped out a little :/ but it's alrighttt :)

and now, i'm gonna talk a little about some people,
who's been ACCUSING ME - of ADMIRING some effed up guy in school.
WITHOUT PROOF.
without solid, cold, hard PROOF.
accusing me in front of my face, really clever thing to do.
really BRIGHT of you i must admit.
the irony of it all,
i'm pissed.
pissed that people would listen to these utter rubbish rumours,
pissed that people won't leave me alone,
and one of the person i'm pissed at apparently has their birthday,
today. 11th July. go figure.
I wish you won't be so presumpting anymore,
and please, take him -
i have no interest whatsoever right now.
and if i find out that you've been talking more and more shit about me,
i don't think it's going to be pretty.

end-
in a MUCH more brighter noteee, :)
i'm turning sixteen in .. 7 days :O OMG OMG.
OMGOMGOMGOMG.
16. 16. 16.
that sounds really old hahahah.
well not really, but you get my point :)
it seems like yesterday i was 15.
okay it WAS yesterday. hahh :)
and now i'm 16! hohohoooo!
hopefully i'll get to learn more social ettiques,
be politer to people
and metabolism boost up high high pleaseeeee
:D
i love you people byee. :)

follow me @ my twitter
twitter.com/peijiun

random random random really.
i kinda sorta missed you today. :)


my words are at the tip of my tongue,
my texts are at the brink of my fingers.

i really kinda sorta am missing you today.


goodnight moon, goodnight stars,
goodnight my love whereever you are.

i'm sad.
people are either too presumpting,
rude,
intolerant,
and expectant.
but mostly rude.

found the swarovski cross.
i don't know what to do with it.
should i keep it close? or should i put it where it belongs?
i know it should be worthless to me now,
just a small token of what our friendship was.
i know i should have felt disgusted holding it,
it should repel me,
just like you, but i don't.
so i'm keeping it.
seems like i got mad really easily this week,
definitely a bad one.
the worst one.
strange it always happens early July.
i could nearly feel my heart palpitating,
when you said i was cute.
not like it's the first,
but somehow you made it palpitate.
maybe it'll pass.
maybe it'll stay.
it couldn't stay anyway, you're like fifty continents away.
i hate awkward silences.
awkward silences make me squirm,
make me uncomfortable,
make me rack my brain for something
witty to say,
make my palms sweat and eyes wander.
so i try to avoid it as much as possible.
and i like people who make my job easier,
really appreciate it.
i wish i had something happy to talk about,
i wish i wouldn't need to succumb to
talking to myself literally to vent out
my penned up feelings.
i wish i could talk to you all night long.
because you make me smile, you really do.
well so do alot of people.
but is it different?
i think it is. but i can't trust myself anymore,
i've 'believed', i've regretted it,
i've repented every of the idiotic mistakes i did,
and i really do not want to repeat them.
but i still think it's different,
i find solace in praying.
tonight would be no difference.

sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

ahh :( it's so late already and i really feel like having someone to talk to,
someone special.
someone who wouldnt mind me texting at such a late time,
someone who could pay for my dinners (hohoho jkkkk:P)
someone who could drive me everywhere,
(cab fares are booming! :o)
someone who could be there to listen to me rant and hate my enemies and spam idiotic facebook users, hehe!
i'm so demanding :O
but sometimes it gets suffocating, i wish i was alone sometimes,
i wish you could shut up sometimes, i wish i was alone without anyone to bother sometimes,
i wish i could spend more time with my friends sometimes,
i wish i don't have to entertain you sometimes,
so which weighs out the rest?

felicia told me,

'' You don't want to be in a relationship because
you haven't found someone
you're really liking yet. ''

i have to admit theres alot of people who said that to me
before, :)

and i,
AGREE.
hehe.

oh, I almost forgot.
today, (lets just pretend today is still the 30th)
is one of my really good friends' birthday!
:D
we disagree on alot of things,
like for instance i keep on saying he's like this
emo boy but he begs to differ. :P
and sometimes our differences make me wanna
punch him in the head,
but most of the time, we get along
really well and head-punching sessions don't
always take place :)
so, a very very
Happy Birthday to William Tang! :D
*belated, sorry!
anyway, since you were being so cheesy q: on my blog the
last time,
i think it's infected me a little.
I've known you for like, 4 years already.
4. four. !! 4 !!
thats a really long time imo.
looking back @ our pictures we've grown SO much,
it's like we don't even look like ourselves anymore.

around my birthday LAST year! ;D

like around November,
OMG looking @ Gav's expression i cannot tahan to NOT laugh la aahaahaha

idk when? march '09?!?!?!

alright,
bye! :D