♥ My bittersweet world ; Sugarcoated

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 14:28:00 +0000

hi everyone! okay la i was really calling someone. haha :)

more pouty pictures to act innocent cuz im being the bitch that i am. :)
and also to annoy the spammer in my blog :)

hello i am so ugly but i like to keep on taking pictures of my boobs and myself because i'm a bad christian!
false. i may not be an excellent christian but i don't think it's up to people to judge on that.

more slutty pouting pictures :)

i look retarded here so your next insult could be, Pei Jiun the retarded unholy boobs showing bitch :)

okay jokeyness aside.. i really don't get affected by people who call me fat, slutty, ugly, stupid.. especially with an ANONYMOUS name on a small little box on someone else's blog. it makes me laugh at the extent you would go to TRY to take somebody down.
do you think it would work, honestly? that i would start to doubt myself and say.. ''yes, i am ugly!!! i am sorry! it is not a sin!'' well, if that was what you hoped for, you hoped wrong. I am not saying i am pretty, because i honestly think beauty lies in the eye of the beholder, and nobody should be criticized as UGLY, nobody is UGLY. and if you honestly think i am, then so be it. i appreciate your piercing honesty and truthfulness but please do not say how my pastor is ashamed of me.
do you know my pastor? do you even know ME, in person? like many of my good friends REALLY do?
and for the boobs part? HA HA yeah i am a HUGE cam slut.
so stop smoking whatever you're smoking, meth or weed, and grow some brain cells. you obviously are left with not much.

besides that, I AM GOING TO KOREA LATER. :)
in precisely 5 hours. so goodbye! i hope you liked the 'slutty' 'ugly' pictures i took!
and i love all of you guys!!!! :) XXXXXXXXXXX
i would blog if i had the time to but meanwhile, my brother's gonna be doing it for me. :)

i'm in love with a monster

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 09:25:00 +0000

HI WORLD :)
okay so i had the BEST sleep ever, filled with tonnes of nightmares but still.. 16 hours of sleep rocks! :) anyway so.. i'm gonna leave for Korea and Shanghai tomorrow. :( :(
Gonna be staying in Korea for 5 days and the rest of time in Shanghai. and i'm gonna stay in JW-M hotel.

i spent less than an hour packing. i didn't know WHAT to bring. WHAT clothes to wear which is suitable. WHAT kind of winter coats i should pack. the weather in both places are turbulent and ranges from -4 degrees celcius to 9. so i basically just brought trench coats over, hopefully i wouldn't be swallowed by the cold.

i am happy. happy to be escaping the inexplicable routines back at home. happy because i'm gonna be seeing my best friends tomorrow afternoon for lunch! :) i haven't seen them in the longest time EVER so i'm really happy about that :)

okay i'll have to do the more detailed packing now. detailed packing : makeup.
you should really see my makeup trunk! would take a picture of it :) and and daddy bought a new camera. yay..
xxxxxxxx Pei Jiun <3

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:59:00 +0000

i woke up in a fright. wiping the cold sweat thats been trickling down my temple with my blanket, i can't help but think about what happened in the realms of my dreams

you were there at the first part. you looked just like you when i last saw you,
impeccably perfect , unpenetratable, with a tinge of self-known arrogance in the air, matched with the most beatific smile that i have ever seen anyone with. the way your hair just falls into place without seemingly any effort, it makes my heart lurches with longing

i smiled at you. you returned the favour. i was here. i must love you alot to come all the way here just to see you, see this perfect sculpture that could make rapid palpitations happen to my heart. i wanted to check in on you if you were fibbing, if this was just a hoax, i wished not. i wanted reassurance

i grabbed your left hand tightly with my right, entwine our fingers together despite your reluctance, perhaps you were reluctant to admit that you are mine? i grabbed on nevertheless. i did not come all the way here to be timid and cowardly. I heard your friend tell you i was a good catch. you laughed abashedly and i wonder whats going on in your multi-layered, complex mind

i saw your friends. they were all there, and we were there - hands entwining for the world to see. even so, girls were calling out your name and matched with excited waved hands. my stomach did a huge somersault. who were these girls? what kind of relationship are you in with these girls? i am afraid but i don't let it show

we climbed up the tiny steps to your room. your room is tiny. you opened the door to your room with great difficulty and plunged inside immediately, door still wide open waiting to engulf me in. I walked in cautiously and notice that Blondie is on the floor, i think she was waiting for the return of you. my heart dropped again. what was she doing here? in your room?

even then, subconsciously i know something was wrong. my trust was used. i don't know what to do, what to think. i came all the way here, to feel safe, to feel secure, to feel guarded but you didn't give me any of that. instead i was even more insecure about myself, i feel disgusted that there were so many other girls involved. why? was i not enough? were you lonely? maybe i am the third person? why didn't you tell me? why did you let me linger on in my own fantasy world while you were conscious all the while?

why did you lie?

maybe it's because i was too in love with you. i ignored the burning hot neon signs saying you're dangerous, you're a cockpit. i ignored all of them and plunged ahead instead, onto a cliff.

now i have to live with the fate of knowing you would not be mine, even though our hands are entwined together tightly, even though the shoulder i'm leaning on is your strong, unfailing ones, even though legitimately you belong to me, even though everyone acknowledges that we are an item..

you are not mine

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:37:00 +0000

Fools who wear their hearts proudly on their sleeves, who cannot control their emotions, who wallow in sad memories and allow themselves to be provoked so easily - weak people, in other words - they stand no chance against his powers! He will penetrate your mind with absurd ease!

i am not weak

the flowers are dead. does this signify how long you've been gone?
the roses were nothing but a figment of memory with a whiff of melancholy.
what do i do with the remains of memories? do i throw them away? or do i keep it encased inside a special part in my heart?
just like the delicate dried out petals, we are so fragile right now.
one harsh blow of wind could end us. or perhaps the dried out petals already signifies the end?

i can't bear to throw it away

cuz if i'm ugly then so are you

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 07:15:00 +0000

without flash and with flash!!!

(damn fugly don't judge me i just woke up)

okay just to show you my real hair color okay, it's not really that red under normal light,

just wanted to make that clear because.. yeah because of sommeeeeee reasons.

ugh i just woke up at a normal, human hour. (normal time's 7PM.)

but today i woke up @ noon!

why?

cuz i'm heading to GSC signatures! to (try) to aatch the renowned movie everyone's raved about.

anyway the pictures above make me depressed damn 7 ugly BYEEE!!!

please laugh at my joke? ._.

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 19:25:00 +0000

pms. i hate it.

it makes me want to stay at home eating Ben and Jerry's all night rewatching old movies and wallow in my sorrows.

it makes me want to throw things at the wall when things don't go right.

it makes me want to devour all the chocolatey goodness in my fridge.

it makes me want to snap at any nasty comments and be angsty.

so heres a joke to cheer all the pms-sy females (including myself.) up!

What did sushi A say to sushi B?

wasabi.

cuz, you know.. wassup B?

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 19:37:00 +0000

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

SPONSOR ME THIS TISSOT WATCH BEFORE

TUESDAY!!!

I WILL LOVE YOU LONG TIME

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 16:09:00 +0000

Zoe Lee! look at this! :D

never fails to crack me up :)

Radio radio, tell me what i wanna know, wanna know

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 14:00:00 +0000

hello!! :) ! my pink bejeweled iphone! :) is it pretty is it pretty? hehe :) and my new manicure.
anyway i'm gonna blog about some things i bought recently!!!!! and due to some requests i put the price there! just for reference purposes

h2o's body mist in raspberry guava! smells really really good (even though it's not that lasting, since it's only a body mist.) and it's not expensive! :D so i bought two LOL

then bought many bottles of Body Shop shower gel wtf i can't resist nice smelling stuff! :D

but it's really good. i've been using them since i was 13.

and um, price - 25MYD per bottles i think. depends.

Shu Uemura's concealer! 80 MYD

which is pretty good! :)

i'm in loveeee with concealers cuz they're just so good! They conceal every single pimple zit redness acne undereye circles! really really good. even though this is really small but it's worth every cent!

Origins mint shampoo! price i don't remember anymore. probably like 80 MYD.

it smells so good! like mint! i love everything mint! maybe except mint ice cream. but yes and it leaves your scalp tingling after you wash! yum! :D

Origin's (again) exfoliater for face! :) pretty good. not much comment hahah :]

price.. is i think, um. 100MYD?

bought quite long ago but just wanted to share! :) best best moisturizer ever! :)

Clinique's moisturizing GEL. im using the gel one and not the cream one because the cream one clogs my pores. and it's.. MYD150 BUT WORTH EVERY CENT (lasting as well)

Origins' (again again) sunblock!

REGRET BUYING. REGRET!!!!

i think it's MYD150. freaking regret! i hate the texture of it. the color of my face after applying it sucks big time. and very gooey. after i put foundation on it just doesn't look good! not using it anymore. HATE! (Actually i hate all sunblocks so it actually isnt this sunblock's problem)

The NEW Estee Lauder's SERUM! :D pretty nice to use, smell's like gingery tangerine and is easily applied, not oily. but i don't know if it's actually doing anything for my skin? maybe it would be worse if im not using it?

fyi it's on the BIG BIG BILLBOARD PLASTERED ALL OVER OUTSIDE ONE UTAMA!

i just saw it there when in the car coming back from The Curve. :)

i think it is.. MYD200.

got this not long ago. (see how fast i use it?) Shu Uemura's purple base.

SUCKS BALLS.

HATE IT. SO HARD TO USE. SO HARD TO SPREAD. MYD100 or something there.

SUCKS. don't buy!!!

a little bit of my makeup! :D

oh gosh i'm bored!

so yeah thats what i kind of bought recently. :) :) not inclusive of clothes la! hahaha :D

hahah the brother just landed down! i'm gonna go bugger him right now hoohoho

my best friends! :)

xxxx

ignore me when you see me cuz i just don't give a shit

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 14:35:00 +0000

greeting earthlings!

i am homee. :)

it was raining earlier on and i was bored, waiting for the rain to subside so i basically talked in front of my webcam. and i really wanna show you guys that, but youtube is being a big pain in the anal hole.

edit, here it is :)

so shopping again today! yay :D and i did my manicure :) i kind of regret choosing this color though, i really wanted glittery orange but i ended up choosing a midnight metallic violet. Christmas collection from OPI :)

aaah i bought mainly cosmetics today. :)

and this raspberry guava body mist from h2o smells divine!!! yay! *spritz*

and i'm actually listening to screamo. kind of. ZOMG !!!

:) bye i'm gonna.. go wash off my makeup now. x

Things that annoy me to the brink and the core

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 05:58:00 +0000

Things that annoy me to the brink and the core

and lets see how alike you and I are!

people wearing my clothes without my consent. okay this is only meant for one person.
orgy cinemas. what do i mean by this? you know, when i go for a movie, i value my privacy, and also the wideness between the radius of one person with another. so i don't like it when the cinema's SO crowded and we're all packed together with strangers LIKE ON A PICNIC WE'RE NOT ON A PICNIC OR AN ORGY
when my phone jams up when i'm about to make an EMERGENCY CALL. etc - when i'm gonna call the cops because theres someone breaking in.
No battery. CAN'T TECHNOLOGY IMPROVE AND MAKE THE BATTERIES LAST LONGER.
When i really wanna buy a dress and find out theres no size.
gross people. who burp really loudly IN FRONT OF ME (applicable for strangers only)
PEOPLE WHO ADD ME ON FACEBOOK AND WHEN I ASK IF I KNOW THEM THEY DON'T FREAKING REPLY OR DELETES MY WALL POST. cowards.
when my legs hurt from walking too long with heels
(applicable for girls only) have you ever felt when you were single you're SWAMPED with guy 'friends?' and when you're taken those guy 'friends' miraculously disappears.
people who assumes things. I ASSUME THAT YOU CAN'T RESIST ME!! oh God i feel like puking.
blog spammers. i know i haven't had one of those in a long long time (perhaps not important enough for blog spammers HAHAHA eh im not asking for them ._. ) but i see blog spammers on my friend's blogs ALL THE TIME and they're VERY VERY insulting. they just FIND things to insult about you! oh i hate you because you have a big nose. oh you're a bitch because i hate you. oh you're a slut because you're fucking your boyfriend. WTF!?
bad songs. SHOULDNT BE EVER EVER EVER HEARD
when your phone's ringing and you can't ever seem to find it in your bag?
when i forget to switch my phone off to silent. shitty hell. and when i FORGET, theres ALWAYS SOMEBODY WHO CALLS ME. nobody calls me when i switch it to silent.
people who disturb the crap outta me on MSN. you know, when my status is on AWAY, 50% of the time i AM AWAY. I AM NOT PUTTING AWAY FOR FUN. example : ''OMG WHY ARE YOU NOT REPLYING ME I HATE YOU BITCH SLUT WHORE CUNT #$^$&. '' i'm away!!!
people with bad time management. to be honest, i always try and try to be on time and punctual ALL THE TIME. unless shit happened, which i am sorry i would be slightly late. but normally, i really do try to be punctual and would be immensely guilty if i was late. SO I AM VERY IRRITATED AT PEOPLE WHO HAVE BAD TIME MANAGEMENT. ever agreed to lunch at 2PM THEN WOKE UP AT 1.30PM? are you mentally retarded?
when i see an amazing purple metallic tube dress but didn't get it :(
people who criticizes and puts down other people by calling them stupid academically. HOW MANY TIMES have people called me stupid in terms of numbers? yes i can't be fucked with numbers.
people who takes like 673455435 minutes to reply you on MSN. IF YOU'RE THAT BUSY DON'T COME ONLINE.
bus rides. i hate buses. i hate sitting on them. i hate it when they pass me by. i hate the squishiness of it. (claustrophobic?) i hate the smell of it. i hate it.
people who borrow my stuff and has no initiation to return it.
RUDE CAB DRIVERS. encountered countless bloody impolite cab drivers. bad attitude and impatient!
CONMAN CAB DRIVERS!!!!!! DO I LOOK LIKE I'M FROM OVERSEAS? DON'T I LOOK MALAYSIAN? I'M NOT MENTALLY RETARDED!! i have took a cab home from someplace near before and no matter how many times i've asked him to take a certain shorter, faster route he insisted on taking the long one! saying it's '' NOT SO JAMMED''! fuck you lah do you think i not know my neighborhood well?!
people who treat you differently once they know you're a tourist. like i'm mentally retarded or something.
people who forces me to do stuff i don't like! especially in amusement parks. if you get what i mean.
people who roll their eyes AT me!!!!! poke your eyes out with my mascara wand
indecisive people. cannot decide on anything AT ALL. should i get that? or that? or that? it's not rocket science, just a drink.
people who say I DON'T KNOW all the time!!!! where do you wanna eat? I don't know. what movie do you wanna watch? I don't know. what color do you want your manicure to be? I don't know. $!@#$
sailors. no, i meant, people who curse like sailors. especially outdoors. fuck they don't have chilli sauce. fuck i fucking want that chilli sauce. fucking hell i want my fucking chilli. OKAY. WHAT POINT ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE HERE? i don't mind swear words online though.
rain. at the most inappropriate time.
people who joke too much till they don't know wheres the borderline.
(only applicable for 13 and 14 year olds) who interrogate me to death. don't get me wrong, i don't mean i'm this block of dry ice that you can't ask me any questions. questioning yes. interrogating no.
when i oversleep. nuff said.
people who are not considerate with me oversleeping. sleep is essential you tao?
when i don't get enough sleep!
when people bother me when i'm sleeping and i can't go back to sleep again. :(
when i'm having a really good dream then i stupidly woke up and it won't come back anymore.
the sound my alarm clock makes. sound in hell.
songs and movies that make me cry. melted makeup? not a good look.
when my makeup melts. underneath the hot sun.
YES. THE SUN IN GENERAL. sunburn. suntan. sunmelt. sunhot. sununconfortable.
things that remind me of you.
bad pens! do you have certain pens which you absolutely can't write in? that your penmanship would look horrendous when you use them? i do. i can't use gel ink type pens.
JK ROWLING. :( cuz she refuses to write any more Harry Potter books after the seventh. *heart breaks*

Cause here's my heart tonight, go on and take a bite

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 05:06:00 +0000

friday the thirteenth (the latest one) wasn't as bad as i could probably imagined.
i was imagining fall outs, mess ups and what nots. i had a very bad reminiscent of Friday the 13th. in the past. in 2007. It was one of the worst times in my life, and it all happened on friday the thirteenth so please don't judge me or anything, i got pulled into the seemingly superstition based on previous memories. I'm not going to emphasize on anything, or elaborate on anything, it was bad - and i definitely don't want to lure myself into it again, or lure myself with the sheer memory with the people who ended up to be, just people. No such thing as friends forever or anything like that. i learned through the hard way.

so, yes. friday the thirteenth this year was definitely better. I went shopping :) and i AM a little guilty but kind of not, really. i mean, it is a big investment! right? right :) i also have a very big habit of twittering when i'm shopping.

this can be meant in two different ways.

1. i can SPEND forever in forever 21. as in, money wise. true as well.

2. i can SPEND forever in forever 21. as in, time. very true as well. you would be staring at me aghast if i tell you how long i stayed there.

anyway, it was fun. i did alot of guiltless shopping. i watched The Time Traveller's Wife.

actually was wanting to catch 2012. but do you know how long and tedious the line was?

crazy. freaking crazy.

so, okay. i queued up. (being the oh so patient me). then theres this crazy cult who's fucking mad about the movie 2012 and grabbed all the good seats. %^&*$.

so we all ended up watching TTT's Wife. which was alright. i mean, i read the book and all, so i got to grasped the concept but for people who has not read the book, it was undoubtedly very confusing. and i couldn't blame them. Rachel McAdam(s)? looks so pretty in there :)

but, like any book made movie, they deliberately cut out many essential, crucial scenes. like the part where Henry got his legs decapitated because of frostbite? yeah, they cut off that part.

painful movie, really. despite all that gooey ooey mushy scenes, the movie was a little depressing. but good. :)

yes. awesome. i'll be getting a manicure later. :)

and perhaps throw in a pedicure together? guiltless indulgence.

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 16:09:00 +0000

AHAHAHHAHAHA carena is so cute to be teased :P

maybe it's time for a miracle♥

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 16:56:00 +0000

yellow. :) ♥

time is ticking by!!! D: well closer to things i'm looking forward to but also closer to the ending!

i hope you get what i mean.

ANYWAY yesterday was Soo Ling's birthdaaaay woot. woot. woot.

even though she was pretty down the whole day (shit happened) but i hope you had a great one! :)

my henna! hahaha.

i forgot which day this was. Anna. :)

a closer look at my hair? :)

and.. i had steamboat at night! zomg i love steamboat sessions. :D

been forever since i had one. okay fine maybe not that long, but..close? :)

and many people are asking me, why'd i get an iPhone?

why didn't i get the blackberry storm? (can i have both TEEHEE)

so like right, i like things big.

like, you know.. BIG.

HAHAHHAHAA. and the iPhone's screen is by far the biggest i've seen.

blackberry's puny. and Pei Jiun doesn't like puny things. so does that answer your question? :)

めぐり逢えた奇跡を信じて
奏でて行きたい　あなたへのmelody
もしもすべてを　失くしてしまっても
この思いは永遠なの
it's my truth.

♥♥

bye x

on the day that you were born the angels got together, and decided to create a dream come true :)

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 18:02:00 +0000

helllooo.

i am exhausted.

today was spent running around to The Gardens, Mid Valley, then to KL at night.

walk. walk. walk.

i got hair extensions. and blonde highlights, which let me repeat..

hurt like a muddafecking beeyotch. painful painful :(

then we minorly celebrated Soo Ling's birthday at night! :) happy happy birthday my dear ♥♥:)

yuppers so by way past midnight i was finally back home and exhausted (now).

okay since i can't remember what i did for thursday and wednesday, i'm gonna talk about friday.

i still remember friday. hahah :)

went to color my hair copper red on friday morning. then went over to Ou with William and Zoe,

and his highlighted hair looks ahmahzingggg :)

dada duu left Ou at about 7.30PM? and went over to Kepong.. dalidada then back home way past

midnight again, exhausted much!
anyway i took some pictures of things but not very posting-up-worthy so i'll save the trouble..right?

but yeah to those people who wanna see my hair, ta dah.

it doesn't look so red here but it's actually hell lot copperer in real life. low light i guess so you can't really see it.

tomorrow.. another loooooong day. i'm gonna go mess around with my iphone now.

and probably take a ...few.. pictures? hah ♥♥

anyway disclaimer,

alot of people on twitter are replying me like,

omg pei jiun you're suchhh a bimbooo. first red, then blonde, then extensions, then this, then that, then nails, everything to do with your body and how you look externally. what about world peace? faminity? world hunger? poverty?

okay fine. what does that have to do with my hair? and my eyelashes? and my pedicures?

i'm not saying i do not care about those causes but seriously, i don't see the linkage?

just saying. :) i still love all of you dearly.

goodnight x

Can we bring yesterday back around? cuz i know how i feel about you now

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 16:29:00 +0000

i am sick. :(
the last time i was sick was.. july 2008. hahaha!
okay but it hurts alot. my head is spinning, nausea. my tummy is hurting, my nose is dripping (okay gross), my throat is suppressing, and this morning i just felt like.. dying.
but i'm pretty much alright now within the confinement of my own room and with the medication swimming in my bloodstream. yup yup crazy crazy.
My arm pretty much hurts alot too. thanks to the huge load of form five books i had to lug home. (17 text books! do the math!) and it feels exactly like the time i was playing on the boxing wii game (really competitive, scary shit)
i think i downed 5 litres of water and a litre of this strangely, surprisingly good chinese herb things that my mom brewed for me aww :) it's supposedly a really good remedy or whatever so okay.

this is such a procrastinating blog post. i've been here for like almost 2 hours and i keep on straying away to chat with people on MSN and such :( maybe i shouldn't even publish this post. :(
anyway no pictures because i am... a patient? now isn't that a very good excuse?
goodnight :)

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 21:31:00 +0000

hey he's cute !

yeah he is ! omg !

shitty fuck he's a girl.

ughghghghghgh.

hate it when that happens, don't you hah?

is it better is it worse? are we sitting in reverse? feels like we're going backwards

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 07:54:00 +0000

okay you guys are either going to laugh at me or throw high heels at me.
hahah i actually feel really reluctant to update my blog, and.. why?
because i actually quite enjoy coming into my blog with a huge ass close up picture staring at me. it sure beats words, right?
okay *holds shield* hahaha don't hit me. I'm just a little bit less verbal. But okay, that was just a little of my insight.
anyway actually, i'm super excited right now. like, super excited.
but i should probably talk about my Saturday first and foremost.
Me and Carena woke up at around noon and bummed around eating MORE junk. seriously its like i gained an elephant overnight. She left at around 4pm i think? and i continued bumming around eating MORE junk. remembered i was supposed to go for heaven or hell at night? well i didn't. i went for a manicure instead. har har. it's metallic violet by the way, and VERY PRETTY :)
time passed on by.. and by 5AM i was dozing off.
I was supposed to go for Jazby and Christine's wedding today!!!!!
ugh. shit happened. I didn't have transport and i cbf to ask other people to pick me up, that would be so.. inconvenient. so i skived it, sigh so now i'm here. with a full face of makeup. a manicure that i'll have to wash off tonight, (school). but the happy thing is..
I'M WATCHING JENNIFER'S BODY LATER AT NIGHT.
i am so excited. i hope i'm not disappointed. wait, theres Megan Fox. obviously i won't be disappointed.
this turmoil boiling up in me is like when i was about to watch Harry Potter. i don't know, i'm just a big fan.
so... yes. i'm excited. kind of. in a way.
it also just hit me straight in the eye that time is passing me by.. like.. meteorites. sorry i couldn't find any suitable metaphor. could you honestly believe it, it's already November?
November.. to me, it's really late. i know, captain obvious right? but really. it's the 11th month of the year. this is pretty crazy. time seems to pass fast this year, is it just me or are you guys having the same insight? i'll be leaving the country in another 3 weeks! *yessss*
i know, people say : appreciate time. appreciate now. So... okay. I'll try. i wish i have a pensieve, or a bottle which i can store up my emotions and use them when it's appropriate.
I wish i could store up the happiness in that bottle. so i could use them by small dosages so i wouldn't be such a melancholic person. Yes... hard to believe, but i DO have my happy moments you know. i'm not always this sappy person.
so yes, i would like to bottle it up. and i would set up a cabinet putting all my bottled up emotions inside and in the morning i would go, Hmmmmm which emotion should i use today? I'm going to a funeral. so i should use the 'sad' emotion. *takes bottle out*
okay. just an example. :) but you get my drift.
so this year.. i've been happy! of course. the happiest day.. is probably, hmm this is a hard question. probably a day in september. i forgot which date it was, but i remembered i was blissfully happy because of what some people did. it's such a small gesture, but it totally made my YEAR.

ugh i talk too much. i give out too many details sometimes. which...sucks.
even though it IS my blog and all.
well, bye! hope you had a nice halloween and have a nice sunday night x :)

and the world is around us, won't stop spinning tonight

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Sat, 31 Oct 2009 08:17:00 +0000

this feels like a bad hangover.
must be all the ruffles and chocolates me and carena whacked last night.
halloween.. to me,
it's kind of a bad reminiscent. i used to have a bad halloween and it was not at all memorable.
shit. i think i'm coming down with something. shit. i think i'm gonna miss the party tonight. shit.
lets keep our high heels crossed.
anyway i was a kitty meow meow this year :) AND I TOTALLY LOOK LIKE ONE. okay? hahah.

kitty eating kitty food.

Amelia :) butterflyyyy she looks so pretty that night :) :) ♥

Andrea & Wei Hong

michelle. :) very angelic devil.

Amelia, Ida, Michelle, Pei Jiun, Fiona

moi. :P i like my bagggggg

~~two vampires.~~ i mean scratch that, Charlie Chaplin, a vampire, and a cat.

HAHAHAH !! sorry William :P

meow.

masquerade prom go-er, and a dead schoolgirl. :)

in the car..

i am exhausted. even though i slept for 10 hours without disturbances last night.

i also AM STILL IN TRAUMA.

shit. HAHAH i am SO not going to elaborate.

i feel like i'm going to pass out.

okay so i need you guys to tell me that i SOOO look like a cat.

i think i do.

meow. :) *licks paws*

mm i'm not feeling well but should i go to heaven or hell tonight...?

Sun down, friday night, uptown, city light

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 17:49:00 +0000

this might make alot of you happy.
i think.
i just got to know about my results. and i felt like blogging.
i am officially a dumbass, imbecile, ninkenpoop, idiot, pea brainer, shallow thinking, stupid, foolish, silly, illiterate.
i am not even exagerrating here, i know i tend to do that alot.
this is pretty depressing. i'm staring at this blank screen and striving to think of things thats not going to make me want to doubt myself.
but i am doubting myself. my subconscious knows that i could have done better.
you know what i was doing during the exam periods?
i was being very nonchalant about it. i didn't know the severity of it. i do now.
i've been disappointing so many people.
i don't like disappointing people. i'm often the one who gets disappointed, not the other way around.
theres nothing i can do about it.
the one person i want to rant this to is being mean. being inconsiderate. being unaware of my throbbing, blood laden emotions.
he is very unemotional. he begs to differ though. but i know better than that.
so it would be no point talking. pretending to care takes up alot of effort and i can't be fucked to be disappointed again so i don't have anyone to talk to.
Alot of people want to share your joy. alot of people want to party with you, when you're free spirited and fun and don't have a care for the world - only caring if your heels matches your dress.
not many people want to share your sorrow. to be there when you need a shoulder to cry on, to be a good listener, to give out sincere compliments without overshadowing my flaws.
no.. not many people. i'm not going to say none, there are a few.. in my life which i'm thankful for.
but like aforementioned him, i put up too much hope and when it crushes it's not pretty.
why can't he be a little bit more sensitive? caring?
why can't I be a little bit more understanding? less sensitive?
we're not compatible.

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 15:32:00 +0000

i am exhausted. but have you ever had one of those moments when you're very tired but your mind's telling you No, No, I don't want to sleep. not just yet. not this soon. this is one of those moments for yours truly.
i went to get a pedicure today :)
i'm sooo ticklish it's not even funny. but i have hot pink toes now. despite one toe being smeared.. my own clumsiness. but it was nice, pretty relaxing.
i also watched Pandorum! finally. :) another one of those science fiction movies. I have arm marks where Carena was clutching my arm so tightly. I do have to admit, some scenes were pretty gruesome. and i'm never one of those sort of person who can take unpleasant shocks in a calm way. But, very tolerable.
i also bought things! along with my shopping partners!

today, is supposed to be a happy, full of smiles, - reconcilation day. We're gonna proclaim our undying matters of heart and sleep with a silly, lopsided grin tonight. No. Not working.
i am disappointed. how?
how to deal with it? i need someone to teach me.
tomorrow.. school again. I'm not complaining.
I'm happy.

cause i'll be there, at the back of your mind. from the day we met till the very last night

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 04:24:00 +0000

hello yello. *big wide grin teehee*
my weekends was pretty buuuuuusy. to the extent that i only had a few hours of sleep, which sucks.
yesterday was relaxing though! in a very zen-like kind of way. :) i went shopping! where else? at my favourite place to shop.. The Gardens! and mid valley lololol. I don't wanna type out everything i purchased cause if i did so i would probably flood this place.
but the high of spending money is my only ecstasy now. oh gosh i sound like some drug addict. i'm not. not really anyway.
but i stopped by borders and got a few books as well! :) which made me happy.. something crossed out of my to-do list,. i got The Time Traveller's Wife! like. finally. i know. right. and undeniably it's a very good book, very interestingly pieced together and is a refreshing alternative from my usual catty chic lits i read. But it might be a little dull for people whom only has immense interest in reading about other people sleeping with other people. (cough gossip girl cough) har har. but it's good, if you have the interest. :)
alright besides that, i was also in a pretty grouchy mood yesterday of reasons unstated. i don't know. i'm despicable like that. i can't control it. it just comes in tidal waves and i'm shamelessly rocked to and fro with it. any effort put into stopping it has no avail. but i'm not here to talk about deep things. today is a light and flighty day. right. of course.
it was compulsory to attend school today.. and yeah, look what am i doing here? blogging for you guys. har har. joking guys, i had a really bad cold today when i woke up. probably side effects. HARHAR. so i had to skip it.. it was apparently some stupid registration for spm or something like that and the teacher even threatened to call our parents if we're absentees on this day. er, go on - call my parents. that'll save me some energy into explaining things to you. so please do.
i'm also not happy about the fact that the every damn time i press my friend requests button on facebook my whole desktop lags for a total of a minute. unhappy. i'm angsty. i'm hard to please. well, not really. i crave for the sedate excitement of domesticity. not high far ones. not on a materialistic sense of it. more of,.. the the simplicity of happiness. of gratefulness. of being eternally elated no matter what kind of messed up things would happen.
it sounds impossible beyond the realm of possibilities, but it's actually doable. i have my angsty moments. i have my grateful moments. i have my frisson moments. i have my stoning moments. it's all about catching me at the right moment and having the ability to change it to ; your moment.
oh gosh. i didn't mean to ramble on. once you start, the fingers and mind would coordinate perfectly into crafting a sentence that nobody understands but only you do.
i just need.. a getaway. a rendezvous. an invacant sanctuary, with only unlimited supply of aspartame and tonnes of books to keep me company.
hmmm.. where is Pei Jiun getting to? i don't know..i could be running low on aspartame in my bloodstream. or it could be caused of the 12 hour restrain of social communication. maybe it's my estrogen and progesterone hormones acting up, or it could be simply that i'm missing some people far, far away from me.

and i'm terrified but i'm not leaving

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 16:51:00 +0000

ha ha. :) yes, i'm happy! who wouldn't be.
no more daily routines of studying before i sleep! now i can concentrate on things i haven't been doing much lately!

~~watch TV! i remembered i used to watch alot of Starworld last time. perhaps time to light up the spark?~~
catch up on serieses like GG & Desperate housewives!
learn to cook better
~~read more chic lit. YAYYYY happy~~
rekindle relationships.. ( edit, i can't do this. )

:D may seem really typical to some of you out there but these are the little things i have been missing out on. now i finally have time for them! how gleeful.
i went out with two of my siblings today! and Car did alot of shopping. :P which makes her really happy har har :) also stopped by Rachel's pool party. :) Happy Belated Birthday :)

at my place :)

woe is me :( i uploaded a batch of pictures and accidentally pressed something that wiped all of it out so i had to load them again! took me an hour. oh gosh. :(

sorry i have many repetitive pictures of me! hahaha :)

kinda liked my hair today :)

har har wei lian emo. hohoho

i'm exhausted! i still have to get up really early tomorrow :( was supposed to go for a movie but i guess i'm too tired! har har. :P
and my legs are really sore from walking :( not in a mood for talking.
i'll see you next time :)
love always.. x

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 13:01:00 +0000

BM 1, BM 2, English 1, English 2, History 2, Chemistry 1, Chemistry 2, Chemistry 3, Biology 1, Biology 2, Biology 3, Physics 2, Physics 3, Additional Mathematics 1, Additional Mathematics 2, Modern math 1, Modern math 2, Moral, Sivics, History 1, Physics 1, P.E

i would soon be reunited with my loveeeeeee :) *teehee*
seriously, history- is like a piece of cake isn't it? especially since i went through the subjectives. OBJECTIVES are gonna be so much more simpler ain't it? and physics, oh gosh physics. since i went through chemistry today and survived, what is physics anyway? it's gonna be a breeze. and PE... don't get me started on PE, its crazy unnecessary. so i don't need to study tonight right? i mean, it's gonna be simple..

HA HA HA . im joking guys.

noreply@blogger.com (kiki pjiun ♥) — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 11:23:00 +0000

nom nom. :)
this is when i get too stupid hehe!